I’m letting go of so much baggage these days. Cleaning out my soul, cleansing my mind. I feel that taking my dreads out is a physical representation of this. Spending hours and hours, combing and cutting them out, is a healing process in a way.
Ready for change.
Transforming one day at a time.
I love you all, you amaze me always. I am so grateful that we can go on these soul journeys together<3333
My friend is so beautiful!
i feel like mr. brightside is one of those songs you’re gonna hear on the radio in the car 20 years from now after not hearing it in forever and your gonna just start sobbing bUT ITS JUST THE PRICE I PAY DESTINY IS CALLLLINGNG M E and your kids are gonna be like is she okay
I just need to stop letting the nastily awful things that come out of my sisters mouth get under my skin, but she’s making it so fucking hard. She just called my mom a shitty person because my mom currently pays for my apartment while I’m going to college a few hours from them, but they don’t pay for my sister to get an apartment. First of all my mom is a fucking saint and even if she wasn’t my mom she’d be the best woman I know. Secondly, the only reason my parents pay for my apartment is because I have no time for a job and I my parents live over 2 hours away from my campus. Third, my sisters college is within 30 minutes from my parents house so why would they spend 900 a month for an apartment in Charlotte. Lastly, my parents used to pay for my sister to have her own apartment but she decided to give it up so she could move back in with my parents to be closer to her boyfriend. So why would they do that again and risk their money on the line signing a lease that more than likely will have I be ended soon. Then she said that my mom and dad are the reason her bf broke up with her a few weeks ago since they’re so strict. Literally my parents have no rules other than don’t lie, be kind, and if you do drugs just don’t tell them. Literally. Those are the rules I grew up with. She said my parents are strict because they wouldn’t let my sister move in with her bf, and the reasoning was, was because neither of them have an income nor will either of them have that soon, and they’re constantly breaking up, and once again, it’s dumb as fuck for my parents to waste money on an apartment within golf cart distance.
Sorry I’m venting but I need this
I literally cannot take my sisters shit anymore. I can’t even explain it. She’s so sleep and food deprived and have been drinking mass amounts of alcohol for the past 4 days. She’s a fucking mess and needs some help. Not even kidding in the slightest and in no means am I making light of the situation, I just need to vent somewhere or else I will snap on her and that’s the last thing my mom needs considering the fact that her mom is in the hospital for having multiple seizures today. But my sisters upstairs yelling at my mom because my mom won’t allow her to go in the hot tub after everyone falls asleep. I’m not exaggerating when I say that my sister has eaten 5 pasta noodles, half a handful of Special K cereal, one small bite of bread and nearly a whole bottle of alcohol in the past 4 days. She keeps on making every conversation about how miserable she is to be on vacation with my whole family, even though my parents are paying for us to spend the week in a literal fucking mansion. And we only see my oldest sister twice a year and this is one of those weeks. I’m so fed up with her purposefully trying to ruin our vacation. It’s so shitty. She blames it on depression, which I understand some of this may be it, but literally every single other person in this house has depression and anxiety and in no way shape or form would we ever consider her behavior okay I the slightest. I honestly feel like if I told people how she’s acting they wouldn’t believe me because it’s so fucking crazy and rude.